{ Looking for Second }

So, on my way from Goleta to Summerland tonight, I was suddenly unable to get from 1st to 2bd gear. This can be slightly disconcerting when you are on a freeway onramp. It took me a bit to figure out that I had a loose bolt in my shifter. And no, I did not scream like a little girl.

[ Life is speeding up ]

Monday night 11:21. I am up way too late. It is the first time I've slowed down in the last few days.

But it's been good.

A plethora of small and large events have been happening the last few weeks. From auditions, to reestablished acquaintances, to new friends that share passions, to conviction in my heart....

...Life has been flying by. And here comes the crazy part...

**** Those who can't stand Ron's plethora of words now is your chance to tune out gracefully ***

I feel as I/my life is picking up speed for a reason. Things are going faster than I know I can handle, and I have the urge for more. That isn't to say that I feel that I am finally becoming some unstoppable engine, -- that will take time -- Moreso, I feel that God is re-stoking fires in my heart and building new ones. I can feel gears clicking in my brain and in my interaction with friends and brothers and sisters. Some of these are familiar and missed. Some of them are new. I feel that the entirety of my life is on the cusp....of the rest of my life?, or relinquishing to God's purpose for me? I'm not sure.

What I am sure of is, that I can't remember a time when I have felt so small/humbled and yet so alive/powerful as the flickering moments of the last few days. And I have the urge to run into this. I have the desire to let myself be conformed more into the man that God crafted me to be.

So, those that love me, pray for God's will in my life and my heart. ( The last thing I want is for my legendary pride to increase in it"s measure, or for me to think that I can accomplish anything of true worth outside of God's grace.) Those of you that Have no idea what I am talking about, feel free to ask me.

It's almost midnight. I gotta sleep.