My friend and fellow home group member Philip, is an encouragement for updating this blog. It's good to let people that I care about that and that care about me know what's going on in my life and what the Lord has been teaching me, especially while I am here at my mom's house.
As of yet, these last few days have been some of the most challenging that I can remeber experiencing. And it's not just because this Santa Barbara boy isn't used to the icy regions of northern California. (ok maybe that's part of it) But in truth, I've come to my mom's house which is normally full of giggles and shouts from my niece and nephew , only to find the place quiet and cold, and my mom is here alone, in a house full of junk.
My goal while up here at my mom's has been to help get the house clean. A few of you know what I'm talking about. So far I've been realizing how much over my head I am. I have found myself in a situation where my abilities and strength and emotional fortitude are falling short. I recognize fully, that in my own strength, I can't really do anything to change my family's lives. That is something that only Jesus can do. Be it directly, or through, me or through others, it still has to be Him. And though I have known that intellectually, I think that this is the first time that I have really come to understand that in my heart. See, even in this He's teaching me. Despite my self-sufficency and pride, He still manages to break my hard heart and show me how much I need Him. Praise the Lord!!!
In summary, the Bay Area is cold, experiencing a family's brokeness is hard, and God is soveriegn and just, and He is good!
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